Tuesday, February 25, 2014

my Reading

~~~ i work with Fairy Oracles i cannot use arcana cards they hurt me physically when i use them or am around when they are used.  This reading i used my Oracle of the Dragonfae.  This is not a deck i use often in fact i do not remember purchasing this deck and found them in my tarot drawer and do not know where they came from.

~~~ That being said i got a great reading from them that really nailed things for me.

~~~ Card 1 - The Past - Lady Una's Magick: Synchronize with lunar time and energy: This card is talking about working with the cycles of the moon to find what i hid from myself and to find my true self.  This is something i have been doing though because of the weather i have not been able to get out in the moon light like i would like to.

~~~ Card 2 - The Present - The Dawn Watcher: Bells will ring: This card is talking about having problems with authority figures and wanting to leave school before i am doing learning. Considering i am taking this semester off because i was burned out and need to see a doctor about my migraines i would say that is pretty dead on.

~~~ Card 3 - The Future - The Blue Lady: Nothing is impossible: (Reversed) For me a card being reversed means that there is block there and something that needs to be freed so that i can move forward with my life. This card is talking about allowing others fears to overshadow my intuition and my hopes for the future. i have been doing this. i know what i feel about certain situation and where my intuition says it is going to go but the other person is speaking through their fear and doubt and i am allowing that to cause me to doubt what i feel. This card tells me that it is my role to break through to the other reality this lifetime. I think that means that i have to help them break through their fears and see what is meant to be and that fear only holds us back from what is planned for us.

~~~ Now i need to figure out how to do this without pushing to hard and too much. If i push too much they will withdraw into their shell and hide behind their fear and depression. Somehow i have to slowly pull them out and get them to see that i see what happened in the past i have accepted that part of me and healed the hurt that was there and am no longer in that place or that person. Yes my past is always part of me but i have learned from it and grown and am a new and stronger person. And that they can do same thing. They are not their past but their past is only a small part of them.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

Things Have Been Very Busy

~~~ Things have been very busy in my life and i have not had much time to post anything so i am taking the time tonight to try to post on all of my blogs. 

~~~ my religion has not changed though i do not cover, nor do i wear skirts all the time. In fact i hardly wear them at all even though i do love them.  i have come to the conclusion that i do not need to wear something to prove that i believe something. What i believe is for me and not for anyone else.

~~~ i have fallen behind on setting up my altar like i have wanted to and with the change of the season from Winter to Spring i hope to set up my new seasonal altar and and get myself back into the habit of setting up and using my daily altar as well. Things have fallen behind and fallen apart here and i need to pick them up, or through them out and move forward with my life. Stagnation breads illness and that is not somewhere that i want to go. With the change of season and term Spring cleaning be more than just about cleaning the home i am looking forward to where my life and my believes are going to take me in the rest of this year and the years to come. 

~~~ On a side night i am still getting the message to wait from the Universe.  Though i think i have figured out what i am waiting for it does not mean that i am to stagnate in my life as i have been doing. my life has to move forward in order for the waiting to end and the next chapter to begin. i am waiting for the right person to be ready for my in their life as i will be ready for them. Every time i have tried to date another it has not worked and that has been what has thrown me into this depression and stagnation. i know that i have feelings for the person that i "waiting" for but i will admit honestly that i have been attracted to other people as well and they to me but when we try and get into a relationship it never works out. And so i wait some more and fall into wondering if i am truly meant to be waiting or meant to be alone. And hence the depression and stagnation start. 

~~~ Well i am not going to allow myself to stagnate any longer. i am going to move on and move forward. i am happy with who i am and where i am in some parts of my life and need to work on my happiness in other aspects of my life. It is an ever on going process and things are not as bad as they may seem from what i have written but things can be better than what they are right now. 

~~~ i am going to try and start doing a daily tarot reading for myself and simply ask what it is that i need to know about this day. i will try to remember to take a picture of each spread and share what meanings that i draw from it here. .... Small steps that lead to a great new journey and a new understanding of my life.